| | What keeps you going? I sometimes wonder what keeps me
going. Of course I want to succeed and of course I want to
accomplish something in college, but sometimes thats not enough to keep
me going. I think I got the first reminder of what I am working
for. After spending the day with my mom, sister and a little bit
of time with Ken, I was walking towards the car, ready to head back to
my home in Davis, as the yelled after me, "Make us proud, Joe."
Don't get me wrong when I say I don't have a home. I wish I felt
at home with my Mom and Sister, but inside I can tell that I dont quite
belong there. I want to succeed and show my family that all my
effort was far from in vain. I will make something of myself and
justify all the faith my Mother has placed in me these past years.
My mother has always worried about me like I never
stopped walking on the edge of two story buildings. It's just
that I never feared falling. In fact, I figured the only way to
fall was to jump, nothing threatened me except my own choice to loose
balance and fall. Now I see that not everything is made up by my
own choices. There are a lot of things that I wish could have
gone differently. So many things that could have changed my
current outlook on my life and situation. But there is nothing I
could have dont to change all that. I was young and
powerless. I didn't even understand what was going on till it was
all over. Now I have a chance to change all that. I will
succeed and change how things go from now on. Even if I run on
just my own stubborness and willpower, I will prove their faith in me
is justified.
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| | Posted 6/30/2005 4:49 AM - 45 Views - 10 eProps - 5 comments
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